My Writing Mentality (or Fuck You)

May 10th, 2010 § 3

To me the hard­est part about self-promotion and social net­work­ing is that I write best when I have a “fuck the world” men­tal­ity. No sur­prise that in that state I’m not very approach­able and I don’t care if any­one reads (or lis­tens to) my work. I’m try­ing to learn how to turn the atti­tude off and on at will because I’m not sure I have the self-confidence to write well with­out it.

And I’m not sure that I want to. I think I come by this spirit hon­estly and it works for me. In fact, dur­ing my writ­ing slump a few years back, I was meek. I wor­ried about peo­ple judg­ing me and lik­ing my work. I let the world win. Now that I think it needs to go get fucked again, I’m far more productive.

Sure, I could just be an ass all the time, but the inter­net has enough of those, right? Is there a bal­ance? Am I miss­ing something?

§ 3 Responses to “My Writing Mentality (or Fuck You)”

  • it might help to think of the two as seper­ate. Writ­ing is art, the inside and true per­son. Pro­mo­tion is busi­ness, the polite game face. I am a dif­fer­ent per­son at work than at home. I am a safety/environmental com­pli­ance offi­cer, so I have to be kind of a dick at work. When I worry about peo­ple lik­ing me, I can’t do my job. I am soooo intro­verted that I had a hard time telling peo­ple they were break­ing the rules, I didn’t want them to get mad at me. I set up some rules to help me cope: I wear button-down shirts that I only wear at work, a watch, a pock­etknife, carry a clip­board. A cos­tume, I guess. I don’t talk to peo­ple at work about my per­sonal life, and they think I’m a jerk. Eh, I’ve got­ten over it. I’m act­ing a part, play­ing a role.

    As a writer pro­mot­ing your own work, you want to meet lots of peo­ple and it will be crit­i­cal that you are polite and kind to every one of them, as I’m sure you’re well aware. It’s unfor­tu­nate and dif­fi­cult but you have to do it, right? I find it tir­ing, too. You don’t have to be Pro­moter Dude while you’re writ­ing though. Phys­i­cally seper­ate the two events in some way and that might help with the emo­tional ties to pro­mot­ing your own writing.

    Ps. I’m a reader and not a writer, so all this may be bunk! =)

    This would make a great panel for some con, by the way!

    • DA Hayden says:

      Good advice. Thanks.

      I’ve always had trou­ble with wor­ry­ing about whether peo­ple like me, which would prob­a­bly sur­prise most of the peo­ple who know me. I keep it to myself well. I think.

      I do need to find a way to phys­i­cally sep­a­rate the two states. Or some sort of cue. I envy folks with reg­u­lar jobs, some­times, who can wear a uni­form or a badge. Or to just be at work or at home. I work at home, so I’m never away. And social net­work­ing uses the same tool, my laptop.

      I have to use a pseu­do­nym, and that has helped with intro­ver­sion and sep­a­rat­ing my per­sonal life from my writ­ing. Hasn’t helped with the other, though.

      Maybe I should wear a mask or a hat when I’m writing!

  • I left out that you can­not let go of what­ever atti­tude and tricks you employ to be a good writer. It’s the busi­ness side that will have to change.

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